日子难过

近来，日子很难过，但无论如何还要过。。

咬紧牙关，打起万二分的精神。。。

冲啊!!!!!!

the site

Facebook, it use to be the site I like the best. I almost spend all of my time with the site..

But now, It seems like the site that make me feel the worst everyday. I hate to log in anymore. I hate "you" use the site as a tool and keep talking all your nonsense.

you say I have no ball and delete your comment, you say you always tell the truth, you say you treat me as friend, you say if I got ball then no need delete your comment..

But pls, if I keep letting you continue spread everything in the site, and I still keep do nothing, is it mean I got ball and brave enough???

You say I break my promise and not to find you and not dare to face the problem. Pls lah, if someone keep threatening you that he or she will kill you and you know yourself will in danger when you meet him, will you still dare to find him and put yourself in danger again>??

you are just hurting me everyday. You say you are mature but is that really as what I can see now??

Well, I already try to ignore whatever you did and continue my normal life here, but why must you keep forcing me?

I hate to explain, but why must force me to give everyone an explanation??

The rest of you, please mind your own business and stop giving any comment, you are just nothing to me and you guys are just keep annoying me.

***pls, if it still continue, I will chose to close my account, I am serious***

冒险王

人生感觉就像是场冒险，或者它本来就是一场冒险。我活到了23， 其实还是不断的在摸索。每当遇上许多不如意的事情，我总会不断的提醒自己要往好的方面想，勇往直前。

天啊！！要把生活过得很精彩是每个人的梦想，我也不例外。但是，接近完美的人生感觉就像是一个姚不可攀的目标。我们每天面对的生活挑战有时还让我真的透不过气。

我尝试过跌倒，再爬起。又跌倒， 又再爬起。感觉每个人天生出后来就逃不了当个冒险家的命运。

花鹿，你可要加油啊。认清目标，别让周遭的事物影响了你前进，别让太多的是非影响了你的判断。

做个冒险王吧！！！

败犬

刚刚从喝茶回来，和平时有点不一样，这个喝茶说白了还真像个朋友设计的联谊。

连我自己也搞不懂状况下去了。。。。

咳。。。对了，不知不觉，原来我也空窗5年了。

难道真的没有女朋友就不能活了吗？

我承认我曾经几度在寂寞的夜晚也很想找人陪。但是，我也很了解自己现在的状况。我根本没有权利选择。。维持自己的目标才是我所要的。

朋友们，别再为我担心。不是我不要告别单身，而是我根本不想告别单身。

我现在真的很快乐！！

不需要别人闯进我的世界。。。

等适当的时机到了， 我自然会寻找自己的幸福。。。

你们的用心我已感受到了。谢谢。。。

我绝对相信我不是一个“败犬”

CC

现在又在cycber cafe..
已经是我这个礼拜的n次了。。。

真是有够无聊，
明明家里可以上网但是又要花钱。。

希望生活不要再颓废下去， 加油吧！！！

...

这几天EQ真的很低。

原来我真的很烦。。。很情绪化。。。。

回也烦， 不回也烦，

总而言之就是烦。。。。

解释

解释真的有用吗？

好多事情发生了，就让它发生吧！！

感谢你把故事说得理所当然。。
真得连我自己也差点相信了。。

你尽管继续说你的故事吧, 我也懒得理了...

反正我相信清者自清, 我也不需要作太多回应,
全世界的人不信我,但我知道他和他一定会挺我
他和她一定会永远支持我......

FEEL STRESSFUL AND WANNA LET MY TEARS JUST DROP

我已经不想再忍了。。。
有眼泪就让他流吧！！

我压力好大。。
已经到达我符合不了的极限了。。

就算我听了一百遍这段副歌：

就別再為他流淚　別再讓他操控你的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔　也不要太狼狽
他不值得你的淚　把那遺憾丟在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追　以後為自己醉
（梁静茹 - 别再为他流泪）

但是，我每次都让自己更悲。。
我很想放下我那乐天的外壳，让自己活得自在些。。。

原来，我刚发现，我已好久没有真心的哭了。。。。

great to be home

I am great to be home...
at here, I feel safe..

Even though my house is not big, but it seriously more than enough..
I feel warm with my mum food..

Here is the only place I feel most comfortable...
I wish I could always stay here but I know I can't.

The world which full of challenges is still waiting for me....

FC Buddy

Even though we didn't contact with each other often,

Even though we didn't do Fan Cheong thing together for a long time,

Even though we didn't talk to each other for a long time,

Even though we didn't hang out together as often as before,

But .....

I am glad that we still understand each other a lot,

I am glad that we still have each other in our heart,

I am glad that we still have unfinished topic to share,

I am glad that we still trust each other,

I am glad that we still care about each other.....One day Fan Cheong buddy, forever Fan Cheong Buddy...

Friends in Kampar

Everyone need friends. Not to say I got a lot of friends, but I am glad that I meet 'real friend' in my life. I really appreciate what I have now.

Many people think that they have a lot of friends and this is what they called 'proud'. Yet, for me, I only need real friend around me. They might not be a lot, but even a few is much more than enough for me.

In this small place, I mean Kampar, I never expect my life would be as happening as in PJ. I also never expect my life would be as peaceful as Sabah. All the way, thanks for those who had been hurt me so far. Thanks for teaching me a lesson and make me live stronger.

I will forgive whatever you guys threat me and I am glad that I know it clearly: who is my real friend around me. I am good enough to survive in this environment. Well, by the way, the following are really my friends.Ok, I think everyone know he is my best buddy a.k.a Brother in Kampar. Well, really thank him a lot for being such supportive whenever I was in trouble. He really helps me a lot for these past 3 months in Kampar. My best mate forever....Even he never show a lot but I really understand that. Bro, everything just leave it to us la.....Taken during our first trip together to KL. CHeers~~~~Another "siao za bo" a.k.a my dear in Kampar. What a funny guy. Ya, he is really a siao guy. Sometimes always wish to call him out but he is just like a cinderalla who need to back home at 12am...by the way, he is a good smoking buddy too (note: when he has the permit).
This girl, Jacyn, I think she is the only lady in Kampar I think is really "open minded" like all my friends in PJ. Ya, she is my dear's beloved one. How to say leh?? I really enjoy studying and gossiping with her. She is the only girl friend I think can communicate well with me in Kampar.
These 2 people is Mr Zhong Ren and his beloved one, Sue Lyn. They are my new friends in Kampar??? Do they still considered new???? I think not really lol..I enjoy the time we go yam cha together and study in the library. Haha, especially Zhong Ren. Thank for being a good listener who can tahan my 38 style.hahah
Crazy shooting during UTAR PR Prom Night 2009.

Hahaha, They are my junior. Even we just spend one semester together, but I really appreciate the time we spend together in these 3 months. The way they threat people make me feel warm; the way they communicate with people make me feel respected.

Well, last but not least...once again, thank you to everyone who had been helped me a lot these 3 months. Hopefully our friendship can stay forever.

The Journey beggin...

hahaha..after a long time didn't blogging...
I finally back to my blogging journey...

not really wish everyone can see it..but I am trying my best to review back what I have done for my past semester...

something really improve a lot, I think I am much more hardworking than before..
I dont want to return back to the lazy one like previous year..
I don't wantto make my parents sad anymore..
I dont wanna make my sister angry with me anymore..
I don't wanna make my family feel embracce anymore...
thats why....
This semester, I really more hardworking, never skip class..I wish my parents would know that.Besides that, I always go to library look for reference...
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Importantly, I really prepare so much for my final...I really wish it is worth for it...
~People sometimes ask me why can I change so much this semester, actually the answer is not why I changed a lot, is I have to change....!!

Dad and mom, I really very clear of what am I doing now. You guys might not be seeing this but I am proud that you guys give me so many chances in my life...whenever I am lazy, I will think of both of you. Do you guys know that? I have nothing to prove but my result. I will keep going until the end og my degree programme....A promise which I will never forget...