NewYear 2010

Few more hours to go, I need to say goodbye to 2009.

Welcome 2010, I wish I will live better than before.....

Tomorrow will update more for my new year wish

tell you what..

Tell you what, this issue had been over for few days..

By the way, I am clear enough: I am not your puppet, I am not your pet, you dare to scold me like this today, I believe there will be another next.

I won't forget what and how you talk to me through the phone. Every words you use to hurt me I will always remember it clearly. All the anger and emo that you try to put on me, I will never forget. I am not the only one who screw things up!!!

This is the way you chose to end up. I also have my own choice. I chose to pretend like nothing is not because I afraid, it's all because I'm still appreciate. However, just want to let you know, I know who am I and who you are now. I will not care everything any more because I am no longer a puppet but a no sting attached!!!

Just go ahead with your pattern>>>> I can't control it anymore!!
P/S: Merry Christmas...This year, my Christmas and CHristmas eve is a damm boring one...

I decided......

I decided to tell you whatever I know...

it's all because I still wish to maintain everything...

H@ppy BIrthD@y Christopher!!

Happy Birthday lol..

20th Years old alredy....

All The best leh!!


~FRIENDSHIP FOREVER~

诚信

人与人之间的相处讲求诚信，诚代表诚实，信代表信任。

我自问对你的坦诚是一百的，信任是两百的。

无论发生什么事，我都告诉自己我一定会绝对信任你；无论在什么情况下，我都一定会支持你。

但是，为什么要让我知道这个真相。

我不明白，为什么一件对大家来说都很小事的小事，你却要有如此的举动？

太多的小动作只会让我觉得大家的诚信已不存在。

我真的很不明白，为什么要拿我对你的信任当赌注？

我更加受不了你若无其事的表情，别当成若无其事那样。

对，可能每个人都有自己不想和别人分享的秘密，但是为什么要让我从别人的口中知道，难道讲出来会真的让你很为难吗??

我对于这件事情真的很失望。。。

我甚至在怀疑你到底几时才是真的，几时才是假的。。。

为什么要玩弄我对你的信任？

但是无论如何，我真的很期待你自己向我清口承认的那一刻。。。

毕竟，我还是百之百信任你的。

心情

有时当你越在乎一些事情的时候，你会不知不觉中让自己越踩越深，让他操控了你的所有情绪和思维。

可能连自己也不懂几时会变得如此依赖。。

当你发觉自己无法抽身，又不想失去的时候，到底什么方式才是最好的解决方案？？

每个人的心中都住着一个自己认为最重要的人、事物。

也许有天当你回首的时候，它也许不存在你身边，甚至也已经开始变得陌生了。但它却埋藏了一段永不能被删除的记忆，永远跟着你。。。

无心插柳

有时太刻意的铺陈，反而会觉得做作，

反而一些话语，一些小事，或一份关心，在你最需要的时候出现，更能显得他的可贵。

其实，凡是不一定要跟着常理进行，反而事情发生在自己的预期之外，我们才会更加珍惜。

我喜欢无意间露出的神情，无意间送上的祝福，无意间发生的插曲，无意间出现的字眼。。

因为他们都是无心插柳。。。。

谢谢你。。。

如没能如你所愿

世事真的很难分辨对与错，黑与白，好和坏。。

人终有不开心的时候，就像多美的花也总有凋谢的一天。。。。

若世界很多事情都不能如你所愿，我唯有学习接受， 在适当的时候放手。。

太执着某些事情会让人过得更痛苦。。

世上没有永远的朋友，也没有永远的敌人。就好像生长在树上的果子，总有一天也会离开母树，生长出另一棵大树。。

每个阶段总有每个阶段的苦乐。。人生往往就像一座天枰，而活着的我们在同时间，不断为自己寻找最适合的平衡点。。

life (1)

huh, recently my life is quite so so...

nothing to be share...but I think I still need to record down something in my blog..

well, really busy with my upcoming and killing assignment..

next week all assignment due...really have to work harder these few days...

yesterday, go yam cha with foong soon, what make this lim teh so special is because we walk to lim teh from my house at 4am and after that walk back home again..really long time didn't do such "siao" thing since PJ life...kindda surprise uncle gan also can walk one, maybe is because the whether is much much better than the day time...unless no sunshine...

Hai, write till here, suddenly make me remember a lot of stuf in PJ.I realy miss my old friend...
In Kampar, I think the person I can share my thing is Foong Soon. But in PJ, I got so many friend who dare to share every single piece of life with me..

Well, really dont understand why ppl like to control their beloved one in chosing friend. Please lah, I do appreciate whatever I have, and please, I also beg you to appreciate what you have lah..
Sometimes, I really feel pity to those who always under controled by their beloved one. WHY? Is it becuse they feel less of self protection??well, maybe to me this single old man, who had being single for 6 years, really dont understand who are those people's mind thinking nowaday.

OK, do write soon..to be continued....

发泄闷气篇（-）

现在已经是5am 了， 别人应该都已经睡着了吧，但是我却还是独自一人默默的在赶功课。

真讨厌，原来要做一份自己完全没有头绪的功课是那么的难。。

感觉上时间已经不多了， 但是这你不了解为什么我的组员们都可以那么的若无其事，而我却犹如热窝上的蚂蚁。

此刻真的好有压力，而且感觉也是超讨厌的。下午的时候已经受够洗碟阿姨的气， 晚上却又要烦islam的作业。我还可是第一次对自己的功课束手无策。。天啊，谁可以来救我！！！

有时还真的搞不懂， 为何平时我那么尽力的帮身边的朋友解决课业上的问题。但是，当我有困难的时候（I mean功课上的）却没有一个人可以帮到我？？天啊， 你也未免太不公平了吧！！

人生还有够无聊，长篇大论之后又可以怎样？还不是又得乖乖的继续作业。。。

闷气发泄够了，还是继续绞尽脑汁，把握时间继续加油吧！！！

busy amd challenging life

Recently, life seems like back to normal already...

keep on with my student life and everyday still need to work...

ya, my mod is getting better..eventhough many stuff still in hand..but I am trying to tune myself in good mod..

I promise myself not to let my emo control my EQ...

Even life is hard to pass, but I understand I still need to keep myself fresh and cool down in every moment...

No matter what, I need to be happy and always bring my happinessto the rest...

Keep on movin..the earth keep on turning, and my life still need to be carried on...

Uncle Faruq, what you need to do is ..always stick on your faith, trust yourself , be stronger and the strongest...nobody can hold you down..

go! go! go!....

an ice breaking I've been waited for so long

Now, this moment, I really fuck'in happy...

Finally, an answer that I been waited for so long is now here..

thanks for chatting with me...thanks for your always forgiving...

you really cheer up my mod in this moment..

Again, I wanna tell you: " I really appreciate it!!! From last time till now"

you will always my sei kei...

A little bit of complain

today I really unhappy..

I dont like the way you mark my assignment..
ya, I know I did wrong, but can you please read finish my assignment then only give marks..

please dont ignore my others part of the assignment..I really hate that..
or else, just do it your own and dont show it in front of me..
I am hurt....

dont think I never put effort, just you didn't see it..

I promise I will prove to you during my final project...

日子难过

近来，日子很难过，但无论如何还要过。。

咬紧牙关，打起万二分的精神。。。

冲啊!!!!!!

the site

Facebook, it use to be the site I like the best. I almost spend all of my time with the site..

But now, It seems like the site that make me feel the worst everyday. I hate to log in anymore. I hate "you" use the site as a tool and keep talking all your nonsense.

you say I have no ball and delete your comment, you say you always tell the truth, you say you treat me as friend, you say if I got ball then no need delete your comment..

But pls, if I keep letting you continue spread everything in the site, and I still keep do nothing, is it mean I got ball and brave enough???

You say I break my promise and not to find you and not dare to face the problem. Pls lah, if someone keep threatening you that he or she will kill you and you know yourself will in danger when you meet him, will you still dare to find him and put yourself in danger again>??

you are just hurting me everyday. You say you are mature but is that really as what I can see now??

Well, I already try to ignore whatever you did and continue my normal life here, but why must you keep forcing me?

I hate to explain, but why must force me to give everyone an explanation??

The rest of you, please mind your own business and stop giving any comment, you are just nothing to me and you guys are just keep annoying me.

***pls, if it still continue, I will chose to close my account, I am serious***

冒险王

人生感觉就像是场冒险，或者它本来就是一场冒险。我活到了23， 其实还是不断的在摸索。每当遇上许多不如意的事情，我总会不断的提醒自己要往好的方面想，勇往直前。

天啊！！要把生活过得很精彩是每个人的梦想，我也不例外。但是，接近完美的人生感觉就像是一个姚不可攀的目标。我们每天面对的生活挑战有时还让我真的透不过气。

我尝试过跌倒，再爬起。又跌倒， 又再爬起。感觉每个人天生出后来就逃不了当个冒险家的命运。

花鹿，你可要加油啊。认清目标，别让周遭的事物影响了你前进，别让太多的是非影响了你的判断。

做个冒险王吧！！！

败犬

刚刚从喝茶回来，和平时有点不一样，这个喝茶说白了还真像个朋友设计的联谊。

连我自己也搞不懂状况下去了。。。。

咳。。。对了，不知不觉，原来我也空窗5年了。

难道真的没有女朋友就不能活了吗？

我承认我曾经几度在寂寞的夜晚也很想找人陪。但是，我也很了解自己现在的状况。我根本没有权利选择。。维持自己的目标才是我所要的。

朋友们，别再为我担心。不是我不要告别单身，而是我根本不想告别单身。

我现在真的很快乐！！

不需要别人闯进我的世界。。。

等适当的时机到了， 我自然会寻找自己的幸福。。。

你们的用心我已感受到了。谢谢。。。

我绝对相信我不是一个“败犬”

CC

现在又在cycber cafe..
已经是我这个礼拜的n次了。。。

真是有够无聊，
明明家里可以上网但是又要花钱。。

希望生活不要再颓废下去， 加油吧！！！

...

这几天EQ真的很低。

原来我真的很烦。。。很情绪化。。。。

回也烦， 不回也烦，

总而言之就是烦。。。。

解释

解释真的有用吗？

好多事情发生了，就让它发生吧！！

感谢你把故事说得理所当然。。
真得连我自己也差点相信了。。

你尽管继续说你的故事吧, 我也懒得理了...

反正我相信清者自清, 我也不需要作太多回应,
全世界的人不信我,但我知道他和他一定会挺我
他和她一定会永远支持我......

FEEL STRESSFUL AND WANNA LET MY TEARS JUST DROP

我已经不想再忍了。。。
有眼泪就让他流吧！！

我压力好大。。
已经到达我符合不了的极限了。。

就算我听了一百遍这段副歌：

就別再為他流淚　別再讓他操控你的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔　也不要太狼狽
他不值得你的淚　把那遺憾丟在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追　以後為自己醉
（梁静茹 - 别再为他流泪）

但是，我每次都让自己更悲。。
我很想放下我那乐天的外壳，让自己活得自在些。。。

原来，我刚发现，我已好久没有真心的哭了。。。。

great to be home

I am great to be home...
at here, I feel safe..

Even though my house is not big, but it seriously more than enough..
I feel warm with my mum food..

Here is the only place I feel most comfortable...
I wish I could always stay here but I know I can't.

The world which full of challenges is still waiting for me....

FC Buddy

Even though we didn't contact with each other often,

Even though we didn't do Fan Cheong thing together for a long time,

Even though we didn't talk to each other for a long time,

Even though we didn't hang out together as often as before,

But .....

I am glad that we still understand each other a lot,

I am glad that we still have each other in our heart,

I am glad that we still have unfinished topic to share,

I am glad that we still trust each other,

I am glad that we still care about each other.....One day Fan Cheong buddy, forever Fan Cheong Buddy...

Friends in Kampar

Everyone need friends. Not to say I got a lot of friends, but I am glad that I meet 'real friend' in my life. I really appreciate what I have now.

Many people think that they have a lot of friends and this is what they called 'proud'. Yet, for me, I only need real friend around me. They might not be a lot, but even a few is much more than enough for me.

In this small place, I mean Kampar, I never expect my life would be as happening as in PJ. I also never expect my life would be as peaceful as Sabah. All the way, thanks for those who had been hurt me so far. Thanks for teaching me a lesson and make me live stronger.

I will forgive whatever you guys threat me and I am glad that I know it clearly: who is my real friend around me. I am good enough to survive in this environment. Well, by the way, the following are really my friends.Ok, I think everyone know he is my best buddy a.k.a Brother in Kampar. Well, really thank him a lot for being such supportive whenever I was in trouble. He really helps me a lot for these past 3 months in Kampar. My best mate forever....Even he never show a lot but I really understand that. Bro, everything just leave it to us la.....Taken during our first trip together to KL. CHeers~~~~Another "siao za bo" a.k.a my dear in Kampar. What a funny guy. Ya, he is really a siao guy. Sometimes always wish to call him out but he is just like a cinderalla who need to back home at 12am...by the way, he is a good smoking buddy too (note: when he has the permit).
This girl, Jacyn, I think she is the only lady in Kampar I think is really "open minded" like all my friends in PJ. Ya, she is my dear's beloved one. How to say leh?? I really enjoy studying and gossiping with her. She is the only girl friend I think can communicate well with me in Kampar.
These 2 people is Mr Zhong Ren and his beloved one, Sue Lyn. They are my new friends in Kampar??? Do they still considered new???? I think not really lol..I enjoy the time we go yam cha together and study in the library. Haha, especially Zhong Ren. Thank for being a good listener who can tahan my 38 style.hahah
Crazy shooting during UTAR PR Prom Night 2009.

Hahaha, They are my junior. Even we just spend one semester together, but I really appreciate the time we spend together in these 3 months. The way they threat people make me feel warm; the way they communicate with people make me feel respected.

Well, last but not least...once again, thank you to everyone who had been helped me a lot these 3 months. Hopefully our friendship can stay forever.

The Journey beggin...

hahaha..after a long time didn't blogging...
I finally back to my blogging journey...

not really wish everyone can see it..but I am trying my best to review back what I have done for my past semester...

something really improve a lot, I think I am much more hardworking than before..
I dont want to return back to the lazy one like previous year..
I don't wantto make my parents sad anymore..
I dont wanna make my sister angry with me anymore..
I don't wanna make my family feel embracce anymore...
thats why....
This semester, I really more hardworking, never skip class..I wish my parents would know that.Besides that, I always go to library look for reference...
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Importantly, I really prepare so much for my final...I really wish it is worth for it...
~People sometimes ask me why can I change so much this semester, actually the answer is not why I changed a lot, is I have to change....!!

Dad and mom, I really very clear of what am I doing now. You guys might not be seeing this but I am proud that you guys give me so many chances in my life...whenever I am lazy, I will think of both of you. Do you guys know that? I have nothing to prove but my result. I will keep going until the end og my degree programme....A promise which I will never forget...